Monday, February 26, 2007
sTrEsS.....
the same title again....
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i am feeling much more stress are getting closer to me now....
after the accident..... the stress are like.... getting more and more... and seem didnt reduce even a little bit...
after the accident... my mom cant move too much...as she is a patient... sooo... it's my turns to do all those houseworksss.... but then..... haizzz.... now only i knew that.... my mom is a 'superbwoman...'
i have missed up many extra classes and tuitions this few weeks... as my mom's leg cant move for temporary.... and my dad is working in outstation.... and conclusion is... nobody fetch me to here and there.... and that time.... i really wanna.....[arrgghhhh!!!!].....
i really hope that the government can make a new dicision... that is---- 16 can drive a car.... if this comes true.... then i need not to missed up soo many classes.... but.... the government set it as---- 17 only can drive a car.... haizz... have to wait for another 1 year....
just now... i went to my account tuition.... i cant even understand what the teacher teaching..... (teacher.. i am not ''sengaja'' absent and dont go for the replacement.... i really dont have car to go.... teacher... please forgive me....) by the way... i will try to chase up as fast as i can..... i try my best.... teacher...
nowadays... i have to do all those houseworkss.....
wakes up early in the morning.... then sweep the floor.... later get ready to school....
after the school.... come back... keep clothes from outside.... get ready to tuition and extra classes....
finished tuition... come back... get ready the ingredients for grandma to cook.... then mop the floor...
after that... turn on the washing machine.... and fold the clothes....
finally.... i can do my homeworksss dy....
everyday keep on going....
every night i sleep on 3 am or something....
sometimes i just fall asleep on the table.... as i really very tired....
every morning i wake up at 5.30am or sometimes 6am....
i am tired...
even sometimes i fall asleep in some teachers class....
but what should i do??? i am the eldest one....
sometimes... i need my sister help.... but then she shouted at me.... *@&#^$%
eg.... i just told her to put those dirty clothes into the washing machine.... she shouted me back... :'' you cant do it aarrrr..??? you didnt see i am doing my homeworks arrr..????'' Oh My Godddd!!!!! what type of attitude was she having..???? i havent scold her yet.... she shouted at me first..... i did so many things.... i also didnt say anything.... i just told you to do such an easy task... you shouted at me... i really wanna fight with her that time.... but... i respect my mom.... ok.... i ''swallow'' it....
Science classes......
Physics + Biology + Chemistry + Additional Mathematics + Modern Mathematics + Malay + Chinese + English + EST + History + Moral = 11 subjects
Extra subjects......
Account + Chinese Literature = 2 subjects
SUM = 11 subjects + 2 subjects = 13 subjects
how i suffer...????? those stress and pressure are getting more and more....
these subjects are not easy to study...*for me*... and i am not those talented people....
would i suffer this kind of life for 2 years...????? do i have the ''stamina''...????
# i am confuse and blurr here.....#
_____what have i did in my previous life...??????________
_____why should i suffer like this.......?????________
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