quiet.... ----- ....result????? Thursday, January 18, 2007
before 15..... i was a talkative person.....
but then....when i reached 15.... i turn to be untalkative and dont like to talk so much anymore..... no why... just because of my result.....
just felt that dont wanna talk so much nonsence with no points....
then turns to 16..... [means recently....]
i become more quite.... that my friends thought that i was angry with them.... teachers thought i was so serious..... lolzzz.....
result.....
yaa.... it's the result...... it's the result that have made me turn to be like that.....
flashback......... ........... ............ .............
my form 2 result was damn bad.... that it made me dropped class..... [tell honestly.... that i havent been in the second or third class before i was 15....] of course i was so damn sad..... and my mom and dad was so dissapointed to me.....
after i dropped class... only i realized that which are those true friends and which are those........[dont wanna mention it.....].....
then..... i turn to be quiet days by days..... just because of my inferior feeling..... kept all those things in my deepest heart.......
then.... it was the PMR result..... i made my parents dissapointed again..... but this time... i can fully felt that my parents had really dissapointed to me...... {i think :...} they dont have any hope towards me dy......
16 recently.....[but havent get birth yet...so still 15...] and form 4 recently..... so damn hard to study in form 4..... especially the add maths...... haiizzz.... made me crazy...!!!!!! made me mad...!!!!!! i wonder why it is so damn difficult.....
yesterday... went to an add maths tuition.... when teacher said have to hand up the homeworks.... all of us just have a shocked.... then all of us started to say ''we dont know wanna hand up oo... so we did the solution everywhere..... left hand side laa.... up side down laa... at the corner laa...'' and all that.... then i didnt make any sound.... just kept quiet and sat at there.... then somebody asked me.... how's about yours...??? i answered i wanna do it again.... then.... i heard one of my tuition-mates said.... ''yooo.... why you wanna make yourself suffer ooo.... for me... i would choose to make teacher suffer....lol....'' then i replied it.... ''i just dont wanna get an ''E''lephant for my add maths.... further more.... do much doesnt matter... yet... do less.... i might be die....''
after the tuition class.... i think clearly.... the main reason is-- i dont wanna make my parents dissapointed to me anymore.... i wanna made them trust me again.... they had used lots of money on me..... all just for my own good...... i wanna make the result for them to see..... i want they trust me again...!!!!!! i need their support.... if not.... [i think] i cant stand with this kind of condition anymore.... they are the most ''big force'' for me to study.....
mom and dad......
trust me......
i'll try my best.....
or even better than my best.....
no matter i sacrifice my.......
sleep, tv, net......
and all that......
i promise
i wanna get a result that better than those previous one.....
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