_my love for you;

smile...????

Monday, February 26, 2007

after the accident.... i dont know how to smile anymore.....
even my friends' jokes are very funny.... but then.... i still dont have the mood to smile......
when you saw i am smiling... i am not truely smile.... just to comfort others....

everytimes... i tell my friends... if you wanna cry... then just cry it out... i will accompany you....
but then.... this time... i cant comfort myself with this way.... i hold the feeling.... and just try to forget about it with doing many many things... just made myself busy.... but i also cant forget about it....

i cried... for my studies....
i have missed up soo many classes and i cant even follow the class....
i cried... for my mom....
the first time i cried in front of my family was the day that my mom having accident.... i afraid i will loose my mom.... i dont wanna live in a incomplete family.... as... no mom and dad.... what for i live in the world...?????
i cried... for my results....
the first year i cried for my results.... that i cant imagine that i can get this kind of results..... the most worst result i got.....

sooo.... how i force myself to smile truely from the heart...????
perhaps....
sometimes....

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