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vivIen(low viven), 17, 13fEB91, aQuarIus, *complicated person, *weird personality, *good listener, *love music...[no music no life], *fall in love with mUsIc InstrUmEnts, *musician wanna be...

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The girl who is so lost without you.

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..YOU
..YOU
..YOU
..& ONLY YOU

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> 04-04-2007
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> 30-03-2007
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> lucky...???? or unlucky...????
> Life....
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> no music no life....
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busy....???
Thursday, April 5, 2007

am i really such a busy person.....???
or i just made myself busy with.....???

scolded by mom just now.... she kept on scolding me lazy....
actually tonight i should start my chemistry tuition... but then... i think that... if i go tonight... i confirm i cant make up the class.... as the teacher is teaching chapter 3 now... and i havent study the chapter 2 yet.... sooo... i told my mom that i will start the lesson next month..... then... she kept on saying that i am lazy... everyday online... surf the net... dont wanna finish my homeworks.... everything also let her scolded.....
actually this is just a minor reason..... where the major reason is.... i dont wanna make my parents spend more money on my study anymore..... there is such a big amount.... if this continue happen.... i think i will dissapoint them again.....
i knew they are just for my own good.... but then... i dont have the confident that i can make it well.... sooo... i have cut off most of the tuition class.... then.. she is angry with my decision.... then started to scold me again..... lastly.... i throw these words out... '' i am not that clever as you think.....'' '' and i have failed almost all the subjects i take.....'' [they still dont know how's my result.... ] (and i dont think that i have to let them know this....) i threw these few words out is just to tell them.... dont judge a book by it's cover.... i dont wanna let them have too much expectation on me.... as... when they have over much expectation.. and i cant make it... i will dissapoint and hit them again and again.... and i will feel much more regret....
i admit that i didnt communicate with them well.... cause everytime they talk to me.... i can confirm that they will end the conversation by scolding me.... i knew all they do is just for my own good..... but then do they listen to what i am thinking.... what i want.... and also what i wish to....??? they wont...!!!! they just simply build up the ''way'' for me... and hope that i can follow them.... i dont like this kind of my success... i wanna make it by myself..... but.. i think i cant make it.... no matter how i try my best efforts....
haizzz.....
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